Every Friday, write a short story, poem or limerick
and then report it to the G-man!!
"The First Amendment gives us freedom,
of religion, press and of speech.
Thank GOD our system deemed child
pornography unfit for this protection.
Do you think this a moral country when our
own Supreme Court is undecided on dogfights?
do you think our Founding Fathers would think,
Is this really what they wanted to protect?"
Here you go G-man, I know it is kind of sad, but it is on today's issues and headlines. I will find something a but more upbeat next week. This story just makes me infuriated. people using our first amendment to hide behind. And our own system allowing this, where is the moral in this country? I ask you with the likes of Rush Limbaugh and Glenn Beck and their so called "morality" you would think even they would have something to say about this, but they are too busy trying to split this country in half with their own agendas. I think it is time for us to take a stand, we know what is right from wrong. Posting dogfights, and crush videos is sick and wrong.
People who live that way should get more then just a fine, they should be put in jail and put under psychiatric care. So should the lawyers who defend this sickness.
So an update on my diet. I am hungry. I went to Satan(aka walmart) last night and looked at those meal replacements. My doctor suggested i just eat less carbs, more protein and exercise. Well I have tried to do this and I know me, if i don't have a structured plan in place, I will do what ever. But I looked at slim fast and one shake has 24 grams of carbs, the second ingredient is sugar!! no shit. excuse my language, I know i am safe with the first amendment if they allow dog fights. anyway my doc says there is not enough protein in those and I would just end up with the runs. So there I am in the "diet" section and I am getting furious. No wonder Americans are so FAT. Really I looked across the diet aisle and saw Hostess Bob Cakes!! Bob from Aliens vs. Monsters, the kids movie, you know the blue blob thingy, yeah these were like those snow balls they sell only blue!! Blue is not even a natural color and this is for our children!! Then I am looking around and almost everyone I saw was way, way over weight!! Then i am in the line to pick up a prescription and this lady in front of me was picking up 16 prescriptions!! 16 and she was probably 100 lbs. bigger then me!! I pictured me in her spot, she as my future self if you will. So then I start looking at the diet pills!! Am I really the only one who struggles with this as an issue? I mean this is not something I get much support with in meetings. Most people joke and say things like, "yeah well I don't want to live forever anyway!!" or "One cookie won't hurt I am not a slave to my body, it is just another addiction." Really nobody want to talk about being healthy in meetings. Not in my area anyway it is so frustrating and when i talk to Wes about it he just doesn't hear me. He thinks i don't want to eat healthy. This morning i had to force a glass of water down, if I don't tell myself this is something i Have to do then I won't do it. For most addicts, they prefer a suggestion, they don't like to Have to do anything, it makes them not want to do something if they are told they have to. for me though if i don't have some structure some rules to follow I won't. and i will justify it being ok because my health is fine, but i don't want my health to just be fine, I want to weigh less, like at least 75 lbs less. that would put me at a respectable weight of 140. i am 5'8 I think that would be healthy, i don't need perfect abs, just less weight. So i left the so called Diet aisle.
So last night i picked up some shrimp because i even looked at the diet meals in the freezer and they all had some form of pasta in them!! So I got some shrimp, some veggie burgers, a brick of cheese, some cottage cheese. My doctor told me to eat eggs in the morning, but if i eat eggs with out bread I get sick to my stomach. I felt that way after lunch and i didn't eat all my breakfast, now I am hungry. I am keeping a diary of my food and water intake as Shadow so graciously suggested thank you for that, I am willing to work for this. What i liked about the shake idea, or meal replacements, was portion control, i have never had that and I don't know how to start with it. So i guess i am starting that and i should be hungry, since my intake has been less today. I will drink some water and have some fruit or a shake, i am coming to accept this as a necessary feeling to get through to getting used to eating less. I also went to the gym today!! that made me feel a lot better too.
OK, my kids are going crazy now no time for a gratitude list, will get a gratitude list up tomorrow afternoon, we are going to Topeka on Saturday and i have service commitments on Sunday. So for todays thought; "Just For Today I will begin a new pattern in my life; the regular maintenance of my recovery."- Just For Today Meditation book for October 8