Tuesday, November 29, 2011

not sure how to proceed

i have stopped blogging for several months now. my main reason is my younger sister is stalking my blog to post negative things about me on the internet. she has stopped since i stopped blogging, and i don't go looking for her. i know i shouldn't let myself be bullied off this blog sight but there is so much going on and this journal has been so personal that i just didn't want her reading anything about me. 

however i am still getting people commenting and following me and it is a truly humble thing. you guys have meant so much to me over the past couple of years and i ran away. but then again that is an addicts m.o. our motto is F.E.A.R. (fudge everything and run) in recovery though we are taught  new acronym for F.E.A.R. and that is Face Everything And Recover. 

life has changed so much for me in these last 6 years, I have a beautiful family, a magnificent home, a wonderful partner and a feeling of overwhelming peace i never thought was possible. there is still more though, more to come and more to face. today i am full of hope, it is my favorite time of the year, the season started off with a bang, literally. Wes got a pellet rifle for his birthday.

My trees are up and my halls are decked, hit the black friday thing, no walmart, yay. kids are growing fabulously. we just got a new front load washer and dryer, they rock!! samsung. our new 50 inch television for the downstairs family room will be arriving on thursday. black friday shopping is a blast i tell ya! i guess what i am trying to say here is i will be making a conscious effort to post at least 3x's a week. will try to load some pictures of my little patch of heaven soon. and thank you so much for not giving up on me.

hope you all have a marvelous day, i will try to catch up on blog posts this afternoon...


today's thought:"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar."--Raymond Lindquist