Tuesday, January 5, 2010

still purging christmas pictures!!

*Today i am grateful for watching my girls play in the snow.
* today i am grateful i woke up from a bad using dream.
* today i am grateful for the meeting i attended last night

*today i am grateful Wes's mom had a good Christmas
*today i am grateful for the relationships we are building
* today i am grateful my family does not stay mad at each other
* today i am grateful i know how short and precious life is.

*today i am grateful haley got her puppy from santa, if only for a visit
* today i am grateful i keep a very tidy house
* today i am grateful i can teach my children good habits
* today i am grateful i have 2 children who have never known me using

* today i am grateful my "A" came out to visit the family
* today i am grateful i am learning to talk with her
* today i am grateful for the homework i got from my therapist
* today i am grateful i have not acted out in anger

* today i am grateful to have met Wes's brother and his family
* today i am grateful Wes makes me feel pretty
* today i am grateful to accept my humanness
* today i am grateful i am not perfect and i can start over any time of the day

After all the hustle and bustle of the holiday season i need to remember to be grateful. sometimes i complain but that is me being human. sometimes i get sad or mad but that is normal feelings. my clean date is coming up which explains the using dreams, this happens to just about every addict when their clean date comes around. so i will call my sponsor. i feel very fortunate and grateful today to be in recovery.
today i don't feel guilty all the time. my life is not one big panic situation. i am not paranoid today. i can reason with the thoughts in my head and i am learning to stay in reality when something triggers from the past. today i feel my feelings and i am learning to not let them control my behavior.
recovery has changed so much in my life and having this blog as a venue has truly been a blessing. i now have to get some chores done for the day i hope you are all finding your moments of serenity in this beautiful day. this leaves me with today's thought; "There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." - Albert Einstein


Kim A. said...

My life isn't one big panic attack today, either. GREAT way to put it. My life is a miracle and that is how I hope and work to live it each 24..with much help and prayer and willingness and humanness.


Ms Hen said...

You go Girl.

You can reason things out with yourself.

You know people, such as myself, in recovery, might not be addicted to substances ever, but we have our own addictions to deal with.

I have to reason things out with myself too.. and I have the tools to do so now.

I think that is why the 12 Steps work for all........and why Al-Anon was derived from AA. We all just have to get healthy with ourselves. It is with relationships with others that we than our tested too.

You sound wonderful. I love the pictures..

Thanks for making me smile today as I read your post.

You are a beautiful soul.

Andrea said...

What a beautiful grateful list! May GOD bless you in special ways, today.


G-Man said...

CC...You always make me smile!
Looks like you had a GREAT Holiday!

clean and crazy said...

yeah i got an old couch on the porch now too!! any suggestions?

Akelamalu said...

Those are all great things to be grateful for! :)

kristi said...

Great pics!! You never gave me those tips from your therapist. (keepin it real blog)

Steve E said...

Yep, I'm grateful for miracles, too...and that about covers every thing!

Nice blog and photos Ms Clean and Crazy!

Fractalmom said...

canvas lawn chairs in the yard in december and a couch on the porch? you sure you aren't from WV like me? LOLOL

Susan at Stony River said...

I love all that gratitude! Great post!

Also love that Inconceivable t-shirt: is that a Princess Bride fan inside??

Busy Bee Suz said...

So great..and so much of what you said resonates with me. Espeically:
"today i am grateful i am not perfect and i can start over any time of the day"
Have a good day!!