just recovering from a weekend of emotions and lively functions. i shared my story friday night and couldn't tell you what i said, i never remember what i share. i think it was ok i had someone come up to me after the meeting and ask for my phone number and someone make amends to me after a two year hiatus of not speaking.
i am not sure but i think my garden is doing better, i will get some new pictures up soon. i planted two new kinds of radishes and i marked when they are supposed to be harvested. i have a huge bowl of tomatoes and am going to look up some recipes for canning, i would like some diced with onions and garlic and i think that will hold through the winter. i have about a dozen in the bowl and tons more out in the garden. my watermelon is starting up again. hope does float, and i hope to have some watermelon before the end of summer. i have broccoli and cabbage and some cauliflower going and so far so good, they have been treated with some organic stuff to keep the caterpillars off them. i still have one cantaloupe that has not been stolen so hopefully i will be able to pick that too, and my butternut squash is getting some growth. i have about a hundred jalapenos and i need a recipe for canning them in slices like in the stores too. my carrot patch is finally showing some carrot tops!! but i tried to pull one and it broke, any suggestions on harvesting my carrots would be wonderful.
on another note, i went to lowes and got 50 dollars worth of fire alarms and then a friend gave me what i needed so i took them back for store credit. i did this because i want to paint my living room and the girls' room. they have fairies on the walls and the fairies are putting flowers on hand painted vines that are crawling up the walls. did it my self, but it is time to come down i will post pictures before and after to show my projects. wes said he could not think of anything we would need to get at lowes, and i told him i could!! so i am excited about that and now i need to come up with a name for my daycare and start marketing and doing interviews, so that along with stepwork is going to keep me really busy.
i have made it to the gym everyday for the last couple of weeks, i have yet to go today as the girls fell asleep on me so i will go after lunch and get some chores done here first, blogging being on the top of the list, and hopefully tonight i can check out how everyone else is doing. gratitude list it has been a while so here goes;
1. today i am grateful for my recovery and the life it has given me.
2. today i am grateful for the level of honesty i am willing to share with others.
3. today i am grateful for my little girls, and my big girls.
4. today i am grateful for the relationship i have with wes.
5. today i am grateful for my willingness to learn to communicate what is going on with me.
6. today i am grateful for my sense of security.
7. today i am grateful that i have lost the desire to use.
8. today i am grateful to live with in my means.
9. today i am grateful for my friends in recovery.
10. today i am grateful to be alive and well.
i have spent this week and the last weekend thinking of all the blessings life has offered me and about how i finally took the steps to accept them and my self. it is an ongoing process and i know i will be in a bad space from time to time, but i never ever have to use drugs to get through any situation life has to offer. that is a good feeling and though i am not a church goer this is a testament of faith and of a higher power. there is a beautiful new song out and i will leave a link here for you to listen i love both these artists very much and for them to get together to collaborate on such a piece is just beautiful. the words are very appropriate i hope you enjoy it!!
for todays thought;"Of course there is no formula for success except perhaps an unconditional
acceptance of life and what it brings."---Arthur Rubinstein