Thursday, May 14, 2009

just a girlfriend

Every Friday, compose a short story of 55 words -
no more, no less. if you want to join in the
fun and games and give it a your story
and report to the boss Gman!!

Feeling unwanted and unloved. The emptiness inside fills me with thoughts
of finding something else to hide the pain.
I would do anything if I only knew what, but all my questions are asked in vein.
Am I too fat, is it all my debt,
I will never be worthy for your Silence tells all.

not a happy note but it is all i got, i have been in such a sad frame of mind right now all i do is cry or get angry, i think i prefer sadness to anger, so here is my 55 hope you all have a great weekend, don't know when i will be back.- Q


Shadow said...

oh girlie, so sad, yet beautifully written nonetheless. hope you feel better real soon!

Dr.John said...

That is such a sad 55. I do hope something cheers you up.

Lou said...

Please keep writing, it helps. Don't take your beautiful soul away, just as we have come to admire and respect you.

You knew the next right thing would not be easy. But you are strong, and your family is counting on you. Life is full of surprises, the next surprise will be a good one.

Hootin' Anni said...

I hope it's not all in vain. Silence is cruel sometimes.

Mine's posted too, it's "Haunting". Have a great weekend.

Fandango said...

You seem so sad. We dragons could sing to you. You humans are always hurting each other. Very sad.
But a good 55

Eaton Bennett said...

I'm sad to know your's a {{{HUG}}} from a complete stranger in Australia no less. Stay safe and hold your faith. Eaton. :)

74WIXYgrad said...

Suzi, I want you to know that there are many who care about you. I will be praying for you. If you want to send me a personal note, my email address is in my profile. If not just pop on our blogs and let us know you how are doing. Each person I blog with is important to me. I especially appreciate you as you are a great encourager.


Here's a couple of virtual hugs. There are plenty more where these come from.

And you are the subject of my latest I like... because post.

G-Man said...

Sorry about the Funk...

But greatness comes from pain sometimes, as you've shown.!!!

Just keep writing, and venting. You'll find a lot of love and support in Bloggerville

Excellent 55 Sue.

Have a Great Week-End....G

aliceaudrey said...

So sad. I feel for you.

Michelle said...

my first time 55 flashing this week. your post was powerful and telling even if sad. looking forward to coming back and reading more

Syd said...

I have felt that way for so many years. But feel better since I've come to understand what made me feel so unloved. the committee in my head still likes to talk but I don't have to listen.

Mona said...

sometimes pain is there to show us how worthy happiness is...

Wish you love and luck and happiness in your life!

ciara said...

i've felt that...many times. we can't be happy & perfect all the time. *sigh* great 55.

Donnetta Lee said...

As the others have said, best to keep writing and get it all out. Good to have this ability as many feel they aren't writers. And--this too shall pass. D

Laura said...

Please don't allow your circumstances to dictate your feelings or actions. God loves you and wants you just the way you are and will bring you peace that only He can give.

Stay connected.....stay reachable...don't hide from us.


Mama Zen said...

Beautifully written. That last line is heart wrenching!

Prayer Girl said...

I have learned that I must allow whatever I feel to have expression - healthy expression.

This is good for me as long as I also, at the same time, feed my spirit with something positive -
meetings, talking with my sponsor and others in the program, doing the next right thing no matter how I feel.

I agree, don't stop writing/blogging - this will pass.

Prayers and love,
Prayer Girl

Noelle said...

Hang in there, dear...this too, shall pass. You are loved!! Just look into the eyes of your children...they see you for what really matters, your kind heart. :) Hugs to you, friend.