oh wow, I am feeling a little overwhelmed today. had too much chaos yesterday to want any more today. first off my sisters son turned 19. yippee. so i thought about a gift and a couple of weeks ago he asked me if i had an extra bed and i told him no. he had an air mattress that he put a whole in, not a very responsible kid, actually he is quite a punk. so i thought about buying him a set of sheets for this bed that i was going to give him. i tell my sister(big mistake) and she starts trying to get me to give him a microwave because she doesn't know if he can fit the bed in his apartment, which he is about to lose because he has lost his SSI income.
see all this STUFF has been happening for a long time. I just manage to keep the chaos away. well not yesterday, so we ended up i bought my sheets for my nephew and re gifted the balloons my sister gave me for my birthday, they are still floating!!! anyway she said she would be here around 5 i was in charge of making lasagna and cake for her son and it was almost 4 when she left me in the parking lot at walmart (insert raising stress level here). I get home and my daughter was stuck outside waiting for me because she had no soccer yesterday hooray!! uhg what a day though so my sister doesn't show up until 6.
wait let me back the truck up, so my sister tells me her son has a date at 8pm so she was coming around 5. fine with me because last night was birthday night at one of our local NA groups and I had some members there i wanted to see, took the girls with me too and that was at 8:30.
so now sis shows up at 6, we eat it is around 7 and they want to watch a movie. OK two guys just tried to see if i would pay them to mow my lawn!! ok sorry about that i hate it when i am this distracted. so my sister didn't leave the house until 8:30 and i was 15 minutes late to my meeting and i had a horrible time. and my children were disruptive and members seemed a little intolerant of my Obama shirt, ok outside issue but I am a little intolerant of bigots.
i know kind of a harsh word but when you make light of racist jokes or jokes about people who are gay or lesbian i am sorry i have a zero tolerance for both of those. you know yesterday i read that an 11 year old kid hung himself because he was being bullied and called gay. where do kids learn hate from adults who make light of it, so yes i have a zero tolerance for this and i remembered now why it is i do not visit much with my sister. i love her dearly but it take more patience than Gandhi to tolerate in such a long period of time. and yes i kept people around because my Wes is gone, he is at a mens retreat in Oklahoma and won't be back until tomorrow and i miss him so much. i am so glad he is gone to this though he has been looking for something to do with NA and men for a long time, that was another stupid joke from the peanut gallery last night, "oh i thought wes was into girls, what is he doing with men?" and this is why i only attend the womens meeting at this group because everything that went on last night was not NA. i am so grateful for my recovery and the fact that i know there is so much more to recovery than what went on there and there is so much more to NA than wichita kansas!! tomorrow is our area service meeting and i am trying to do my part to inform the area of happenings and to help in getting meeting schedules done and flyers posted events happening. i really enjoy my service work thanks for letting me vent for todays thought;
hope you enjoy your day