Thursday, September 3, 2009

Flash Fiction Friday- tempting an addiction

Every Friday write a story of 55 words
no more, no less and then report it to the g-man!!

'Should I take the dare?
Do I listen to the voices saying I shouldn't care?
I sit here trembling with fear,
as I look at the dope sitting near.
"Go ahead" she giggles, "it's just one line..."
I just realize she is no friend of mine.
one is too many, and
a thousand never enough.'

Here ya go g-man, hope you can get this one easier then the quilly words I used last week! I hope to not hurt those dragons feelings by not using their quilly words this week, I had other things on my mind.
Great stuff to report though, my "A" is going to Newman University on a scholarship this semester!! Tuition is paid for by the foundation and she will get 2 college credits in biology when the semester is over. We are sooo excited and she will be scheduled to graduate high school next year, a whole year early so she will be applying for scholarships to KU in the fall. i made it to the gym today and that made me feel more motivated then anything else, and i finally heard from my sponsor and that really helped my mood. So while i have been thinking of my mother all day, I have not wallowed in sadness and that is some really neat stuff. so here is my gratitude list 5 things I am grateful for today;
1. today i am grateful for my wonderful health, and from the look of my arm I don't have TB either!!
2. today i am grateful for my daughters scientific brain!! she doesn't know how lucky she is to "get it" when it comes to all that crazy math stuff.
3. today i am grateful for the walk we took tonight down by the river.
4. today i am grateful for my recovery in Narcotics Anonymous.
5. today i am grateful for my willingness to get out of the way and work my 7th step.

I know my flash has an eerie sound to it, but it is strictly fiction. I have never put myself in that situation. I am grateful to not be silly enough to ever think I need to test the waters or put my recovery in any danger. I read in the news that another addict passed away to his addiction. I have said a moment of silence for a lot of addicts, many of whom I have found out about through this blog. I think about that beautiful moment taken everyday by addicts all across the world who pray for the still suffering addict to make it in the rooms, and for those who will die from this disease. That moment of silence IS my favorite sound. I take it very seriously and I am very grateful for it because I know it helped me get into the rooms. I wonder though because it is so sad to think how easy it is to walk away from your recovery. So on that note, for today's thought;
"We know that we are powerless over a disease that is incurable, progressive and fatal. If not arrested, it gets worse until we die. We cannot deal with the obsession and compulsion. The only alternative is to stop using and start learning how to live. When we are willing to follow this course of action and take advantage of the help available to us, a whole new life is possible. We do not have to understand this program for it to work. All we have to do is to follow direction." from the Basic Text of Narcotics Anonymous pg 88- 89 Fifth Edition


g-man said...

You are one of the most humble, grateful, and talented people on this planet. Whatever journey you took to get to where you are now, was well worth it!
Excellent 55...
Thank you so much for this fine contribution, and have a Kick-Ass Week-End....G

Tall Kay said...

I loved every single bit of this post! Your 55 poem is amazing. The scholarship is a wonderful gift. Your outlook continues to improve everyday you keep up the exercise. Keep doin what your doin...cause it's working C&C! Have a great weekend!

Steve E. said...

Great "Grateful" words...and that "55" ain't bad EITHER!!!

Hootin' Anni said...

My 55 is posted here [as always, scroll down below my Friday's show n tell.] And, have a great weekend!!

Shadow said...

great 55. and that they're thoughts only is good. no matter how strong we are, temptation is never something we should put ourselves into thoughtlessly.

Dr.John said...

Wonderful 55. But an even better blog entry. Really like your grateful list.

My 55 is posted

Busy Bee Suz said...

I love your flash 'fiction' story, though somehow I believe this is not fiction for everyone.

Congrats to A!!!

Jessie said...

well done!


Lou said...

Thank you for taking a moment of silence for Andrew.

Mama Zen said...

Wow, from start to finish.

And, congratulations to A!

Fandango said...

Glad she said no. Drugs cause so many problems. The last dragon to do drugs ended up burning down the Bishop's House.
Great 55

Lulda Casadaga said...

So easy to cross that hard to retract your step. Very profound indeed!

Susan DeAngelis said...

I just realize she is no friend of mine.
one is too many, and
a thousand never enough.'

Awesome 55.

And fabulous gratitude list.


Recovery Queen at said...

Great collection of stories.
I'll be back.

Prayer Girl said...

This is a powerful 55! I loved the ending!


Syd said...

It's great about your A. I'm so glad that the math and science is an interest. The country needs more scientific minds. Nice gratitude list. Thanks for sharing.

Addiction said...

It feels really good to overcome a drug addiction. It is hard but it's worth it