Monday, May 23, 2011

I am here

Gosh it has been over a month. So much has happened. I have decided to continue blogging. Before I go on I must say I blocked someone from seeing my blog. While I do not believe in censorship, I do believe in keeping my sanity. 


To me it is like shutting off Fox news. I don't watch that channel. Drives me crazy how those people perpetuate lies about the nation to get their republican goals met. Like when they wanted the president to be deemed un-American, the birther crap. Well no matter how much you say it isn't true, the fact remains he was born in the United States, your lies can't change that. So instead of arguing with a television set, or bringing up these inane controversies, like the teachers union making too much money at 56,000 per year (by the way the teachers in my state barely clear 24,000), when 6 months ago these same people were spewing that those who made over 250,000 were in poverty so we would extend the bush tax cuts is a complete lie. Just thinking about it gets me stirred up, so I simply don't watch it and I try not to engage. I am aware though.


The same goes for the person I blocked. They are family and insane and spewing insane lies and backpedaling. When she saw that I deleted myself as a follower she chose to lash out against me. I am simply not wanting to watch her spew lies and put herself into this self made isolating prison. She has said lies about my whole family and that is simply what her life has brought her to. She knows nothing of me and my family yet she tried to blackmail me into sending her money, then lied to my niece about never doing that. She lies so much that she wouldn't know the truth even if it fell out of the sky landed on her face and wiggled. I do not wish her harm I wish her well. She has no financial future, and now has completely burned every bridge in the family. Reading her lies makes me as mad as watching Fox news. Just because she wrote it does not make it true. Yet it makes me just as angry and I don't need anger in my life today. So to protect myself I need to distance myself and allow her to do what she feels is best for herself. Nothing I can say will change her she has to find her own way in life and now she has to do it alone.


As for wes, I can't really talk about it, my brother posted his full name on facebook, he meant well but it was not good, as he said my honey has 'acute leukemia' and he does not have that,  that kind is a death sentence. But to post stuff like that on the internet, particularly facebook, where potential employers look people up could deem him unemployable. Even though that is illegal we all know it goes on. The good news is he is not dying.


Even better we bought a house!! 2500 square feet of heaven!! it is so beautiful. We close on June 24th. We have been super busy packing and getting this home ready to sell. I will continue to keep you posted and try to play on Friday. Group therapy ends on Thursday it is my last session with the group and I am sad. I have had a wonderful time learning about this disease I have and working with these people who struggle much the same way I do.


By the way I received a summons in the mail, I m a 'stand by juror'. Don't know what that means but I have to call in a couple of hours to see if I have to report. So I need some breakfast and a shower, working on the house all day yesterday got me sun burnt and stinky!! I think it would be cool to be a juror. a decider of fate. plus I am nosy!!


OK well I am going to make some wonderful fresh roasted Costa Rica coffee and catch up on my peeps. Thanks for sticking around!!


Today's thought; "Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."- Howard Thurman

9 comments:

Sober Julie said...

Welcome back! How exciting about the house!!

Busy Bee Suz said...

Glad you are doing well. Great news about the new house. Good luck!!!

KB said...

Congrats on the house.

Chef Kar said...

I have been on "hiatus" as well. Feels good to be in the mix again ~ hope it sticks for me, as well as for you. Writing is good therapy for me and something I need today. Blocking, "de-friending", deleting and just ignoring is, in fact, sometimes self-preservation. I've had to do it and it has, I'm sure, been done to me. The "rules" have changed with social media. No need to have toxic people in your life.

Congratulations on your house! That's great news :-)

G-Man said...

Susie...
Please come back.
(G-Daddy misses you terribly)
YAY!!! On the house

Akelamalu said...

Welcome back!

A new house eh? How exciting. :)

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

bummer, and yay. Life at it's finest, living highs and lows, just making the best decisions we can with the power we have.

Good to see you're alive and kickin!

Syd said...

I am really glad about the house. So etimes we have to let go of toxic people for a while and see if things get better. I hope that they do. But there is no reason to be around people who are hurtful.

ZARA said...

So glad I found your blog! I'm a bible belt liberal! I'm also a nine yr. methadone user starting suboxone
this Fri. I'm sitting around the house waiting for wds to start. My last dose was Sunday....