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getting things back on track today. first post in a week. i have been faithfully going to the gym i am now under 200 pounds and i have not seen the scale under 200 in over 4 years. i am trying the low glycemic load diet. the concept is to remove the starch and high sugar drinks from my diet and to exercise. i hope by september to have my A1C's lowered significantly but only time will tell. i am even getting used to only 2 cups of coffee with no sugar in it.

i discovered soy flour, and wheat bran. these two items make it possible for a protein waffle once a week. i can still keep with in the weight watchers guidelines as well. Beans are ok as long as they are not refried, i can use less of them in my soups. All the things i read from the american diabetes association says to have 6 servings of starchy carbs every day. the low glycemic diet talks about removing starchy carbs.

my family loved the diabetic diet because you simply take some insulin and viola low sugars. me i have been burning the glucose out of my blood for about 4 weeks now and lowering my intake of glucose. the problem with starch is that your body turns it into glucose and glucose goes into your blood. your pancreas has to make insulin to take the glucose out of your blood stream. it then turns glucose into fat and stores it in your body. hence there are so many overweight diabetics. if we continue to eat high carb diets, loaded with starch then when we do go to the gym we only burn glucose out of our bloodstream and see little if any effective weight loss. i had this problem last year at the gym if you recall. today with less sugar in my diet, less starch that turns straight to glucose, when i go to the gym it is effective in weight loss because now i am burning fat cells. but time will tell when i go in september. i am also hopeful for the holidays coming!!

i know i like lots of sweets and goodies but learning these new recipes on the low glycemic load, not index, diet i can substitute some sweets. the pumpkin pie is a staple for the holidays, and a complex carb so medium on the gylcemic load, i can make a soy flour crust, and it doesn't taste bad, and i have a feeling no one will notice. i don't eat pumpkin pie, but there are other things i can do and it makes me excited because i love new recipes and cooking. one thing though i need to get rid of corn starch. i can substitute guar gum and or xantham, i know these things sound weird but if you look at some labels of food you will find these things in there and they replace cornstarch. cool huh.

i have been feeling wonderful to boot, i feel more energized and organized. i am still uber busy we are planning a trip to texas next week and my meetings are covered. i think i am on the right track with my diet.

we had the funeral last friday and we all cried our eyes out. part of me was angry with my friend and part of me was angry with myself. i thought why couldn't i save him. but it was not my job nor is it my job to save anyone. that is not what carrying the message is all about. the gift is in carrying the message, it is not up to us who hears it but we recover more fully and gratefully knowing we are doing our part to help give this message of recovery away.

my brother is out of the hospital and my sister is living in her truck right now until the first when she will get assistance. i am going to mail out my newsletters this afternoon and heading to the gym now. i hope you all are wonderful and i will try to get to commenting on you this afternoon, during naptime...

thanks for sticking around even when i wasn't posting or having time to comment on everyone. i do miss this part of my recovery. you all are a great part of it, i love the thoughts and heartfelt words... oh and we realize we suck as organic gardeners!! there are huge caterpillars eating my dill!! and my tomatoes are not popping out tomatoes they have flowers but no tomatoes we found some stuff that you spray them with to help with that!! so much for organic, we did not get the spray yet but we are losing our crops to bad bugs even with an insectary!! oh well eventually we will get it, don't know what more we can do this year but to keep watering, hoeing and hoping for the best. and pulling those damn hungry caterpillars off my plants!! wes was going to powder them and i told him, Don't kill them!! i mean they were just hungry. and pretty, i know i am sicker than others but i felt a little compassion for a hungry caterpillar. it looked just like the one in that childrens book the very hungry caterpillar and there were about 6 or 7 of them. ok gotta go!!