Monday, April 11, 2011

why am i here.. a meme from lime

i am here because my mother met my father in a bar after her husband died.
i am here because my father was a good dancer and could swing a lady.

I'm here because my mother didn't care what her family thought of my father
or maybe she did and maybe i m here in spite of it.

i am here because i ran away from home. i ran so far i thought i would never go back.
I'm here because i met a man who said he would love me, but only hit me.
I'm here because i needed a place to go that was safe, where he couldn't hurt me, so
i looked for a safe place to hide and found a dark and scary place.

I'm here because i liked getting high. i used to hide in that dark space to get
high and i would forget why i was here.
I'm here because i didn't want to feel the pain so i pushed the needle deeper.

I'm here because the paramedic decided to get up that day and go to work and answer
a call for an unresponsive person. i tried to hide way deep in the dark place and i didn't want
to come back.
I'm here because the policeman decided to respond to a call of someone stealing
and using fake identification. i didn't want them to know who i was.

I'm here because there was a baby growing in my tummy and she needed a mommy.
and maybe i needed her.

I'm here because a man decided to love me, even though i couldn't love myself.
I'm here because he stood by me and took care of me when i was not able to take
care of myself.

I'm here today because i choose to be and i can decide that all by myself.

here you go lime. i am not a very good poet, it doesn't rhyme but it does start with me being here. i think that is what i was supposed to do. anyway check out lime's  hers is much better!!


Shadow said...

wow.... heartfelt. honest. you are perfect!

Andrew said...

I don't know much, if anything about poetry, but this speaks to me.

Thank you for sharing (Suzie)

lime said...

it's not about better or worse or more or less poetic. it's about why you're here. we all come into the world for a variety of reasons, kicking and screaming, and needing...

i'm glad you're here. you're a survivor.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I like this, it tells a story.

Busy Bee Suz said...

You have come a long way baby!!!
This is very deep, moving, beautiful.

Akelamalu said...

It may not rhyme but it sure says a lot. :)

Jannie Funster said...

I too am glad you're here and talking to us.

"oo I pushed the needle deeper" tells me where you were in that dark space, and is very very poetic.

I'm going now to create your button and code it up for my sidebar. Have no idea at this moment what it will be...


Jannie Funster said...

I Googled "the flower of hope" and the almond blossom popped up. Yours is with VanGogh version, and one of my fave sidebar buttons yet. (But they're all my faves, really.)


Syd said...

I am glad that you are here. Wonderfully written.