saturday thoughts

so my brother in law is coming in from texas today. we wait here for him and his girls, they met us last christmas for the first time and the girls are anxious to see their cousins again.
  i am going to a group conscious, business meeting in NA at one of the english groups in town to ask if the spanish group can use their meeting hall 2x's a week for a meeting. kind of nervous.
  the community corrections went well. we did not get our literature or business cards in time so i made some. actually the ones i made came out better then the professional ones and we are sending them back. area is tomorrow and i am really nervous about it. we have 4 more panel presentations to the community and a huge opportunity to get NA out on national night out. we will see what happens.
today i looked and i have a tomato!! i did dust my zucchini yesterday and i feel terrible about it. but there were squash bugs flying everywhere and i have 10 baby zucchini going and don't want to lose that fruit. i am starting fresh plants indoors though, i was just buying these fruit some time.
i missed the funeral for my friend but the panel went so well we are so stoked about the opportunities for service. the police want our meeting schedules and a city wide panel presentation and my members are willing to continue working with me to do these presentations!! i went to a meeting last night and i am going to hit a noon next week and get out of my comfort zone. so hopefully tomorrow i can control my temper and not let angry hateful personalities get the better of me. that is my nervousness. but if i have to stand up for my group and my people i will. there is prejudice and it doesn't matter where you go it does exist. there is a language barrier and fear. we need to work through this to help addicts get clean. that is our primary purpose and hopefully we do not lose focus tomorrow because of strong personalities who want to be a block to progress for what ever reason. please pray for me that i can be graceful and humble tomorrow that is all i want. to be able to serve my fellowship without the emotional baggage i seem to carry around. thanks so much for stopping by and leaving comments it is a wonderful gift, this internet and i appreciate my community!!