Tuesday, February 2, 2010

sending out some smiles

you can see how she just brightens a room with her smile. what a blessing it is to wake up to this every day.
the bean is trying to fill some big shoes!! she thinks she is funny wearing my shoes, i think she is adorable. she was sick last week with a cold bug and it was just heartbreaking she kept saying ouch and reaching for her nose that wouldn't quit running.
they have such a strong bond that my sisters and i failed to have. i hated my older sister so much and my younger sister was "dumped" on me by my mom. so it was hard to be a sister and a mom and then a drug addict. i think my little sister got the raw deal. i just want them to be close and love each other it is so important that these two love each other more then they hate each other. i don't want them to miss out on spending time together. it was only after my father died that my older sister even talked to my mother then after my mother died she started talking to me. it was hard because i was so angry with her that i would lash out in anger and say very ugly things to her. today with the help of some healthy boundaries and some surrender and acceptance of who each of us are, we can have a relationship.
Keep your eye on the ball!! OK! ever seen that movie the Sandlot? the girls call it the beast movie!! they love it and role play it out and Santa brought the bean a t-ball set and they just love it!!
gillian loves playing ball!! they are both so active they just crack me up watching them learn!!
i love these moments with them together!! today i am taking it easy. now my sinuses are killing me and i can't quit blowing my nose and every time i do i get dizzy. last night i took some medicine so i could breathe but i couldn't sleep all night. my throat is sore and i have major drainage and gosh i hate feeling like this.
here she is giving daddy some pointers!! she told him 'keep your eye on the ball ok daddy?"
i need to call my surveyor for an inspection but i need my house ready like i am open for business. which means some serious rethinking about what pictures are in my living room, i need my daycare rules up and i want to put my digital photo frame up to when i get kids and i take their pictures i can load them up to that. my hallway has tons of wall space and i would only need to move a few pictures. making this a daycare home creates some difficult decisions. i am lucky my family supports this and i have free reign on decorating my home simply because no one else wants to. today i am sick and i will allow myself to take it easy and get done only what i can and not over do it. today's thought;"Our grand business is not to see what lies dimly in the distance, but to do what lies clearly at hand." --Thomas Carlyle

10 comments:

Shadow said...

sibling love is so beautiful to see. that's something i missed out on. okay, i had a brother, but with a brother its slightly different. my 2 sister were very much older than me, and i've only connected with one. and that now recently. and now we live over 2000km apart, which doesn't help a lot...

Lou said...

Smiling right back at cha'!

Syd said...

Great photos. Those girls do look like they care a lot for each other.

Kim A. said...

Those pics say so much!! Feel better soon.

Namaste

Ms Hen said...

Totally totally totally adorable...thanks for sharing and putting a smile on my face.

Brian Miller said...

great pics! love those smiles.

Mama Zen said...

What little beauties!

Feel better soon!

Nessa said...

Beautiful smiles.

Poor Tuesday

Debby of Oxycontin and Opiate Addiction: A Mother's Story said...

I just wanted to send you hugs. Thanks for you touching comment.
Thinking of you,
Debby

wheelboy and son said...

they make the hard work of sobriety so much more worth while