Thursday, December 17, 2009

Flash Fiction Friday- grateful for freedom

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"Freedom from active addiction
Comes at no small price

We've all committed our sins
and taken our roll with the dice.

Today as I sit and reflect
how my Freedoms give me a choice

Watching the shadows of my past unfold
Today gives me a voice

I'm grateful that I feel
Love makes me real."

Here you go G-man, i am in such a great space right now. i hope to hold on to it for a while but i am not driving, i am not in charge. today i am just enjoying my ride!! Here are a few of my favorite things....

Somethings make me sad and sometimes i get angry. i know today that is just where i am at and i do not have to stay there. i had therapy tonight, by myself, and i am not sure but i think it was ok.

Such a simple smile passed along, to the next generation, my little bean. i can hardly believe she is 3 years old, her baby face almost gone, so much structure and happiness in her little smile.

So poignant and grown up. who taught her to blow pudding kisses? i am grateful today, i am not wasting any time away from my children. i am learning that there are triggers in my past that cause a lot of chaos in my life today. with guidance i can learn to process the past. my therapist says that i spent so long numbing what happened that now it is time to actually process what happened so long ago. then i can get to a place where i can disagree, and it just be a disagreement.

look how hast time flies, she is so precious and 16 already!! graduating early and going off to live her life, i hope she lives. i hope she chooses to face life and all of it's wonderful obstacles with out fear, with an open mind, with love in her heart. i hope she remembers me when she goes away.

my little moments, i enjoy only through the freedoms from recovery. i could easily ignore this and focus on something bad, i am grateful for my treasures in life, my family. look her hair is finally growing in!! she was bald for so long!! where does the time go.. don't blink, you might miss it!! todays thought; "We are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the Beautiful Stuff out."- Ray Bradbury


Thom said...

Love and Freedom ... what a great combination. And you little pleasures in life are awesome. Have a wonderful Friday and Great 55 :)

Brian Miller said...

wonderful pics! and a great 55. there is such freedom there...and love guides us to it. smiles.

mine is up!

Hootin' Anni said...

This is all so beautiful!! It's heartwarming to read your words and know that you are one with all you do.

Lovely family photos too.

MY 55 is all about snow suits and the urge....come see HERE


Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Beautiful!!!! beautiful beautiful!

Ji said...

an awesome model for family, love, and fun!
i admire you for your happiness shown in this post, precious and unforgettable!

I am new blogger and welcome comment.
thank you and Happy Holidays!
Take good care.

Alice Audrey said...

You've got a great ride going. Enjoy to the fullest.

You did the link thing on my blog perfectly. Thank you!

enchantedoak said...

I loved your whole post. Your 55 is wonderful, and so are your precious people. The Bradbury quote is awesome. "Let the beautiful stuff out"...That's what you're doing in recovery today.

Susan at Stony River said...

What a wonderful, joyful, amazing post! You sent my heart flying with this one. Merry Christmas and I hope your holidays are the best ever!

Lynn said...

I am grateful that you feel, too and thank you for a lovely post.

Akelamalu said...

Great 55 and I love the photos - especially the little chocolate face! :)

Kim A. said...

Freedom..choices...I didn't know the meaning till I hit the rooms of Alanon. Alot of gratitude in your 55 today. thanks for stopping by. I, too, am now able to process the stuff of the past...slow..and steady...


Cookie said...

LOL@ the pudding kisses.
Love the sunglasses :)

sarah said...

love those pics and your 55 speaks volumes. From a recovering addict - you speak the dance of recovery. Sarah

Dr.John said...

What an uplifting 55. The pictures were great too. I'm glad you have come to a place in your life where you are becom8ing free.

Larry said...

Love your grateful for freedom and a very fine looking set of girls there too. Hope everything is going good for you and things get better each day. Looking forward to next weeks 55.

Marine Life

G-Man said...

I have a GREAT Big Smile right now.
I loved this 55!!
I'm very happy for you right now, and thank you so much for sharing your joy!
Have a Kick Ass Week-End Baby....G

Susan Anderson said...

Great affirmation of living to the fullest!
Thanks for visiting mine

Felicitas said...

Outstanding 55! And your little girls are gorgeous! Wishing you and your family a wonderful Christmas.

Shadow said...

your 55 is nothing but brilliant. and accompanied by such happy holiday snaps *smiles*

Eaton Bennett said...

Soak up all those blessings and enjoy them. Hope your Christmas is a wonderful joy to you and yours. Your photos are gorgeous! Very sweet kids.

Eaton :)

Lou said...

Another uplifting 55!
Life is a lesson in humility. And gratefulness. And blessings.

You have all that.

Syd said...

Thanks for sharing these photos. I'm glad that you love people enough to let them go. That is a difficult thing to do.