Tuesday, November 29, 2011

not sure how to proceed

i have stopped blogging for several months now. my main reason is my younger sister is stalking my blog to post negative things about me on the internet. she has stopped since i stopped blogging, and i don't go looking for her. i know i shouldn't let myself be bullied off this blog sight but there is so much going on and this journal has been so personal that i just didn't want her reading anything about me. 


however i am still getting people commenting and following me and it is a truly humble thing. you guys have meant so much to me over the past couple of years and i ran away. but then again that is an addicts m.o. our motto is F.E.A.R. (fudge everything and run) in recovery though we are taught  new acronym for F.E.A.R. and that is Face Everything And Recover. 


life has changed so much for me in these last 6 years, I have a beautiful family, a magnificent home, a wonderful partner and a feeling of overwhelming peace i never thought was possible. there is still more though, more to come and more to face. today i am full of hope, it is my favorite time of the year, the season started off with a bang, literally. Wes got a pellet rifle for his birthday.


My trees are up and my halls are decked, hit the black friday thing, no walmart, yay. kids are growing fabulously. we just got a new front load washer and dryer, they rock!! samsung. our new 50 inch television for the downstairs family room will be arriving on thursday. black friday shopping is a blast i tell ya! i guess what i am trying to say here is i will be making a conscious effort to post at least 3x's a week. will try to load some pictures of my little patch of heaven soon. and thank you so much for not giving up on me.


hope you all have a marvelous day, i will try to catch up on blog posts this afternoon...


me

today's thought:"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar."--Raymond Lindquist

7 comments:

qtieboi said...

I never Gave up I knew you would have the strength to get past it all you are My sister and I know your a strong woman never give up never give in to the bullies and the people who only want to hurt or harm life is good to you because aside from everything you grew despite of everything you grew you changed your life for the better you made a conscious decision to be this wonderful person you have grown into and nothing and no one has the power to harm you unless you let them and your too smart for that I love you and I will be out to see the family soon

Busy Bee Suz said...

So glad that you and the family are doing well.
I don't know what anyone could say about you that would be bad...just ignore the small minded peeps.
:)

Her Big Sad said...

I'm so glad to see you made a post - I've been thinking about you! Glad all is well! Sounds like you rocked the BlackFriday and I've not really seriously done that before this year, but I tried it. It was indeed a blast. Have a blessed and peaceful holiday season - I'm honored to read your posts, and glad you plan to keep writing. <3<3

Syd said...

Glad that you are still around. It sounds as if things have been going well. Thanks for stopping by and commenting. Happy Holidays!

beachteacher said...

Glad to see you back. I really love to read what you write.

PSYCHABLES said...

Hi blogging is great especially if you can express right through writing. Blogging is a stress reliever for me. Welcome back to blogging!

cecilia58 said...

Don't let anyone bully you into stopping--every day you write about being clean is an inspiration to others. I work with addicts in heroin rehabs so I know how much it means to those who are just starting the journey of recovery to see others who have been there and made it to the other side. God bless, and keep up the good work!