time slips by

it has been a while since my last post and i have not had time for a friday 55 in weeks. i don't have time to visit my blogging community and now i need to make a decision on our vacation. i have several commitments to keep and now i have to give a few of those up to go to texas and visit family.

don't get me wrong i want a vacation, really. but i lead 2 meetings a week i have therapy at least once a week i have the asc business meeting and we were going to attend a group conscious this month. a starts school on the 17th and we have regional weekend on the 14th and 15th of august so our best bet is with in the first week of august but national night out is on the 3rd and i committed to do public service at an event in town. if we leave after the third we will miss the asc where i have a report to give and money to receive for the regional donation. either way i will be missing a meeting that i lead and it means the group will not be open on that night or those nights.

my sponsor tells me i need to let go of some of my responsibilities but i am not sure which ones to give up, the hispanic group just started but the week nights are not getting any support. yet. i promised the group service rep that i would commit to these meetings and at first it was just one night a week because we had other members but they have since moved on and no longer attend.

on to other things i have lost 25 pounds with weight watchers but found out that i am still diabetic. my A1C's were at 6.7 but my sugars were normal. so i do not require medication but if my A1C's reach 7 then i will. so i spent the last week and a half eliminating the sugars in the house and changing my glycemic intake. i hope. i have been hitting the gym about 5 times a week and i am learning some new recipes for my health. tonight i made some grilled peaches, we had some that were not getting sweet so i drizzled them with agave nectar and then i grilled them over an open flame. i used a half cup of fat free sour cream and added 1 tablespoon of splenda and a teaspoon of cinnamon to top them off with  and it was a lovely dessert at only 1.5 points per 2 halves and very low on the glycemic index!! I haven't even had time to go to a weight watchers meeting in over a week so i do not know what my weight is now but i should be losing still. i have new muscles on my thighs and my butt is separating from the top of my legs!! so that is really exciting.

i need to go read to my girls and work on my garden. thank you all for sticking around and leaving me comments, every day when i check my emails i am always hoping someone stopped by to check on me, today the lovely Eaton Bennet left me a wonderful award and i will try to get to it soon. i hope you all are doing well.

tuesday rant

i love this picture. i found it online. i downloaded a ton of new brushes for my photoshop and i love the work i am getting done. i feel real bad today. i gained a pound and a half. i fell off the weight watchers wagon over the last week. my mother in law was here and then his brothers family came in to town. i asked if we could go to the healthy restaurant and nobody wanted to go. it is hard to maintain a healthy diet when no one else wants to. i know i need to get back on track, today i am going to the gym, the library and then another panel presentation. we have therapy tomorrow, joy...

i am very anxious about the area business meeting. i hate confrontation and after the last presentation a fellow whom i don't get along with is going to be there. we used to be friends and now he just hates everything i do so much that he berates my work in front of professionals. he did a panel presentation with us last week and then told the professionals how this scripts were sterile and how he could have just emailed them to the professionals. this is our public information chair. if he ever read a handbook on how to conduct a panel then he would know that you need to keep it 'sterile'. uugh it is so frustrating, we had a rehearsal before the presentation and he could have said something then, he could have asked for changes if he didn't like them. no instead he takes all integrity, if he ever had any, and throws it out the window and shows his ass in front of the community corrections officers in wellington. i am so angry about what he did and i can't say anything because it will come out angry and bad. i don't want to face this person i just want him to fall off the face of the earth with his smug little self entitled grin. ok so it is good that i have therapy tomorrow. i also have a new sponsor, i think i told you that. i have never heard back from my old sponsor and it has been over a month. i left her three messages.

ok this is my update i will try to post again, soon. i am going to the gym to get some happy endorphins i hope you all have a wonderful week, we had rain all weekend for the fourth and we got our fireworks soaked!! how was your independence day?