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"Freedom from active addiction
Comes at no small price
We've all committed our sins
and taken our roll with the dice.
Today as I sit and reflect
how my Freedoms give me a choice
Watching the shadows of my past unfold
Today gives me a voice
I'm grateful that I feel
Love makes me real."
Here you go G-man, i am in such a great space right now. i hope to hold on to it for a while but i am not driving, i am not in charge. today i am just enjoying my ride!! Here are a few of my favorite things....
Somethings make me sad and sometimes i get angry. i know today that is just where i am at and i do not have to stay there. i had therapy tonight, by myself, and i am not sure but i think it was ok.
Such a simple smile passed along, to the next generation, my little bean. i can hardly believe she is 3 years old, her baby face almost gone, so much structure and happiness in her little smile.
So poignant and grown up. who taught her to blow pudding kisses? i am grateful today, i am not wasting any time away from my children. i am learning that there are triggers in my past that cause a lot of chaos in my life today. with guidance i can learn to process the past. my therapist says that i spent so long numbing what happened that now it is time to actually process what happened so long ago. then i can get to a place where i can disagree, and it just be a disagreement.
look how hast time flies, she is so precious and 16 already!! graduating early and going off to live her life, i hope she lives. i hope she chooses to face life and all of it's wonderful obstacles with out fear, with an open mind, with love in her heart. i hope she remembers me when she goes away.
my little moments, i enjoy only through the freedoms from recovery. i could easily ignore this and focus on something bad, i am grateful for my treasures in life, my family. look her hair is finally growing in!! she was bald for so long!! where does the time go.. don't blink, you might miss it!! todays thought; "We are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the Beautiful Stuff out."- Ray Bradbury
