Learning to Laugh at myself

just taking in this wonderful moment to share some serenity with my blogger friends.......
......breathe in ... breathe out. OK so wow what a crazy weekend i have had now i am in a funk of not feeling up to par and sleepy as all get out and my back is in such pain I am contemplating setting up that appointment with my doctor about steroid injections.
did quite a bit if service this weekend today i am mailing out the last of my newsletters, should have been done months ago, then i need to set up the next edition, which is real easy i already have 4 great articles to put into it. i need to organize all the regional secretary stuff and get it ready to pass on to the next secretary, today we are headed off to order some t-shirts for the upcoming campout, tomorrow we are meeting here to record the hotline and teach other members how to do so, Thursday we are having an adhoc meeting on the campout itinerary and make sure i have all the times right. so i will make this brief so i can do some step work and catch up on my tutorials from kelby training. i apologize for not making it by to comment and see how everyone is doing i hope to do so sometime this week I will have my gratitude list for tomorrow and my Flash Friday though not sure what to write about but i will think of something I really appreciate having a couple of commitments to post on the blog so I don't forget about it.
On another note my garden is coming in and i am going to for sure have radishes, butter crunch lettuce, zucchini, cucumbers, spinach, jalapenos, spring mix lettuce, bibb lettuce, cantaloupe, tomatoes and green and colored bell peppers. not too sure if my carrots are going to do anything and my green beans and snap peas are in the lower part of the garden that has been flooded for over a week so say a couple of prayers to mother earth that they may soon sprout. Also i think we may have found a way to cut $100.00 from our grocery budget. Our Gillybean is lactose intolerant so we have been buying Silk with fiber for her, it seems to help her go, and it cost 3.50 a half gallon and now Wes is drinking it for his G.E.R.D., so we go through at least 6 containers a week, well we went online and found a soy milk maker with all kinds of recipes. the milk maker needs to be able to heat the milk up to 180 degrees to get rid of the bitterness of the soy beans, also you can purchase the beans very cheap and a gallon of milk runs around 40 cents. so we are getting one and we are going to try some different recipes and see how well it works out, i told Wes i would be willing to use the soy milk and give up on cows milk if it would save that much money. Be careful if you go to Amazon though, last Christmas we purchased something from there and our credit card got nabbed and there were 2 -400 dollar charges put on it in New York, of course we were not charged but when we contacted amazon they were not even going to do an investigation of their members. So we have this deal where you can create a card for a one time use and give it a certain limit for online sales and then if some unsavory character gets your number it will be of no value and they cannot get your real number, it is through B of A if you want to check it out it is a customer protection plan. Another thing we went on amazon and ordered a milk maker and the company then told us it was out of stock, and tried to use our money without having the product so double check and call the company to make sure it is in stock first, amazon does have an option that says "out of stock" this company just did not use that option out of fear of losing business. so some food for thought maybe you can save on your grocery budget as well. and for today's thought; “The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.”-Mahatma Gandhi

crazy rants and the piano man

oh wow, I am feeling a little overwhelmed today. had too much chaos yesterday to want any more today. first off my sisters son turned 19. yippee. so i thought about a gift and a couple of weeks ago he asked me if i had an extra bed and i told him no. he had an air mattress that he put a whole in, not a very responsible kid, actually he is quite a punk. so i thought about buying him a set of sheets for this bed that i was going to give him. i tell my sister(big mistake) and she starts trying to get me to give him a microwave because she doesn't know if he can fit the bed in his apartment, which he is about to lose because he has lost his SSI income.
see all this STUFF has been happening for a long time. I just manage to keep the chaos away. well not yesterday, so we ended up i bought my sheets for my nephew and re gifted the balloons my sister gave me for my birthday, they are still floating!!! anyway she said she would be here around 5 i was in charge of making lasagna and cake for her son and it was almost 4 when she left me in the parking lot at walmart (insert raising stress level here). I get home and my daughter was stuck outside waiting for me because she had no soccer yesterday hooray!! uhg what a day though so my sister doesn't show up until 6.
wait let me back the truck up, so my sister tells me her son has a date at 8pm so she was coming around 5. fine with me because last night was birthday night at one of our local NA groups and I had some members there i wanted to see, took the girls with me too and that was at 8:30.
so now sis shows up at 6, we eat it is around 7 and they want to watch a movie. OK two guys just tried to see if i would pay them to mow my lawn!! ok sorry about that i hate it when i am this distracted. so my sister didn't leave the house until 8:30 and i was 15 minutes late to my meeting and i had a horrible time. and my children were disruptive and members seemed a little intolerant of my Obama shirt, ok outside issue but I am a little intolerant of bigots.
i know kind of a harsh word but when you make light of racist jokes or jokes about people who are gay or lesbian i am sorry i have a zero tolerance for both of those. you know yesterday i read that an 11 year old kid hung himself because he was being bullied and called gay. where do kids learn hate from adults who make light of it, so yes i have a zero tolerance for this and i remembered now why it is i do not visit much with my sister. i love her dearly but it take more patience than Gandhi to tolerate in such a long period of time. and yes i kept people around because my Wes is gone, he is at a mens retreat in Oklahoma and won't be back until tomorrow and i miss him so much. i am so glad he is gone to this though he has been looking for something to do with NA and men for a long time, that was another stupid joke from the peanut gallery last night, "oh i thought wes was into girls, what is he doing with men?" and this is why i only attend the womens meeting at this group because everything that went on last night was not NA. i am so grateful for my recovery and the fact that i know there is so much more to recovery than what went on there and there is so much more to NA than wichita kansas!! tomorrow is our area service meeting and i am trying to do my part to inform the area of happenings and to help in getting meeting schedules done and flyers posted events happening. i really enjoy my service work thanks for letting me vent for todays thought;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCyKcwvV5gE
hope you enjoy your day

Friday Flash 55- Growing Old Gracefully

Friday Flash 55 is still new to me. You write a story of no more that 55 words, and no less than either. Then you let the G-Man know you've posted yours and see what he thinks. This week I had some inspiration from an empty anti- wrinkle cream bottle so Here goes;

Ever Dream of being a princess? Or have a crazy notion of wearing that coveted tiara
of a beauty queen? Then one morning you wake up and notice that extra little wrinkle?
A few too many grays and suddenly your wondering, "Where did the time go?"
Ever think you would look like this at 35?





So here you go G-Man and to anyone else who wants to join just post yours and report to Mr. Know-it-All!! Todays thought; "The age of a woman doesn't mean a thing. The best tunes are played on the oldest fiddles."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson